A definite negative

As I thought, negative. I know my period still isn't due for a couple of days but this test is supposed to be able to test up to 6 days beforehand and it still says negative. That's a real blow and very upsetting but I also have to keep it all together because if I breakdown now who's going to pick me up again, who's going to pick up the pieces?? No one! :-( So I owe it to myself and my sanity to keep strong and keep myself together......it's not going to be easy though I don't think.

Today I'm meeting up with a friend from work, I don't really socialise with people from work and I'm a very private person really but every now and then you meet someone you really click with and make plans to see out of work. I've just been away with her and it was really hard not to let on what I was doing, I wanted to but I just can't bare the thought of my private life being banded around the back of an aircraft. I did let on that I had big plans for this year and funnily enough she then had a dream about what it might be. She came up with have a baby, adopt a baby, sex change (!) or new business. I'd love to tell her and be excited with someone about it all but I'm scared to as well, not scared to tell her the details just scared that my private business will suddenly become works public business.
Over a few texts I said I'd maybe tell her over a coffee but now the day has arrived I'm not sure I can tell her, I wonder if she'll ask.