First consultant appointment

So after a lovely 4 weeks away in Central America hiking, eating and drinking I arrived back home and ready for my first consultant appointment. I'm nervous before I go in and I have no idea what hes going to say, part of me has convinced myself it's not going to be good news but another part is hoping for the best.

If I'm completely honest I'd have to say I don't know a great deal about the human body, how it works and the ins and outs of fertility and I hadn't done much reading prior to my appointment (as didn;t want to scare myself) so when he started talking about AMH levels and antral follicle count I had no real idea what he was talking about. The consultant explained it as best he could and went on to tell me that I had an AMH level of 0.57 pmol/l. which is very very, very low. :-( I knew it wasn't going to be great news but I suppose a little part of me was still optimistic. He then suggested doing a scan to see how many antral follicles I had which with both pieces of information would give him a better idea of my potential fertility success.

Now that was a new one on me an internal scan. I didn't realise they even existed and in fact it appeared little more than a probe covered in a condom with lots of lubrication but it does the trick and from that he was able to see that I had about 3 to 4 follicles on one side and 6 to 8 on the other, again not great news, but at least I had some, and from this he told me that even with the maximum drugs I only had a 4-5% success rate with IVF.

Wow that was a massive blow I can tell you. I honestly never thought the news would be that bad, if I had of known this was possible I definitely would have done things differently a very long time ago, I would have made this decision or come to this conclusion a lot earlier than I have.

But right there and then I made the massive decision that this is what I was going to do, in that one instant my life changed forever and I knew that from then on I was going to do everything I could to have a family of my own. 
Now I just had to tell the family as one way or another I need them all to be right behind me.